Sometimes when I am home alone I sing at the top of my lungs and echo in my house. Sometimes when I am not home alone I get lazy after I take a shower and sit around in nothing but my towel. Sometimes I hum showtunes at my desk at work. Most of the time I think things at odd angles from the conversations all around me. Sometimes I can't stop paying attention to everything all around me in the world.
The world is quite beautiful when one is eccentric. I think that rather then strange eccentric may well mean one is simply unreasonably in love with the strangeness of the world. Where other people may chose to ignore or walk away from the odd or otherwise bizarre some of us walk right up to it and make pets of it.
This is not a pathology. I am not a pet to be kept for all my strangeness, for all my inability to deal with the normal world. I'm just looking at the man behind the curtain smiling. It's rather fun, once you get used to it. HE usually finds it quite disturbing.
I find that I have often given up my eccentricities to a certain extent when it comes to being in relationships. I keep forgetting to cultivate the oddities that I love within myself because I think they will make other people uncomfortable. This is a mistake. If other people are uncomfortable then maybe they need to learn something, or go the fuck away. A good friend taught me the wisdom of "Namaste - OVER THERE!" (for those not farmiliar with the Sanskrit greeting "Namaste" it means roughly "I honor the spirit in you that is also within me" and is pronounced "nah-MAH-stay")
So, I don't think I'm going to compromise myself anymore. I am odd and beautiful and I want to dance crazy in the rain listening the Arcade Fire and sipping a merlot making out with a good looking man.
Maybe I'm not all that Eccentric (depends on who you talk to) but whatever I am, I am at least really good at it.
I don't think you're eccentric. To be eccentric, one must be wealthy. We with those feelings but not the funds to act on our eccentricities > 97% of the time are simply crazy or weird, depending on how close you are to that magic number, which is mostly up in the millions these days.
ReplyDeleteEccentric is easy without money, it just means you do it without a body guard and with a credit card.
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